Mourning the Baby

Aahh!! I'm finished worrying about constantly thinking about if I'm pregnant or not. This is so frustrating! I'm back at the beginning again, day 2.
This weekend has been pretty hot; around 32 or 33 each day and that's before the humidex. And the end of last week was really warm too. I'm looking forward to a break. It's supposed to drop back to normal mid-week.
We're leaving for the cottage Friday night when Craig's done work. And just a moment ago I talked to Craig about bringing the cats with us; we're bringing them! Yay! We both think it just won't be fair to leave them here in a hot, stuffy house all by themselves for 5 days while we're somewhere they'd love to be! I'll have to make a list later this week of stuff I need to pack. And I'd like to give the house a complete once-over before we leave too so I don't have to do any of it when we get home on Tuesday or Wednesday. Yeah, the next session with Melissa is going to start 2 weeks from today since Craig's on vacation (thus, so am I) on the WEdnesday that Aaron leaves. It'll be nice to have 3 or 4 days less... and I think I'm dont with her Sept. 16 maybe. Heh.
Shaun's growing up so fast! Craig and I think he may have had a growth spurt recently because he certainly seems bigger than last weekend. I actually had an afternoon this past week where I just watched Shaun playing and I was able to reminisce. I cried a bit and felt pretty sad for a while; I just miss the baby-baby he was only a few months ago. We both completely enjoy Shaun right now but it's hard to move on from where he was. Especially since it feels like it's going so quickly. Eleven months and before we know it, it will have been a year since I was struggling with breast feeding and changing diapers.