Six Weeks, 9 Months, 3 years 8 months, Drafted Post from May 9, 2009

The ages of my kids right now. Granted, the youngest is still gestating but you get the idea.

The child that is growing in my womb is six weeks old today. I am due to give birth to this child in 34 weeks.

Baby's heart is beating. Baby is twitching. Baby is about the same size as a kidney bean, it's heart as tiny as a sesame seed. Baby makes me tired, feel sick and constipated.

When we talk about the future now we talk about having 3 children. It includes thoughts on where the carseats will go in the van, how we will afford Disney World in 3 years, finding a babysitter, carpooling, grocery shopping for so many mouths, laundry, having only 3 bedrooms.

But I am so happy. I love this baby. I love my family. I love my life. I already picture us as a family with three children. I imagine myself bundling up 2 boys and wrapping my bulging belly in a sweater as we hurry outside in the cold. I picture our bedroom all set up for a home birth. When I daydream of days spent at the beach I see a family of 5. I see myself carrying an infant and Shaun holding Ian's hand as we stroll to the park.

This baby surprised us but it was always wanted.