8 Weeks

Well, 8 weeks tomorrow. It feels sort of wierd to be pregnant again. Maybe because it too so long (18 months) to get here I'm having trouble accepting that I'm actually here. We were at Wayne and Leah's last night until 10PM and Shaun slept in this morning until 9:45. So nice! I had a heck of a time getting to sleep last night, it was after 1:30, so the little bit extra was really nice. I'm slowly starting to get into my maternity clothes. I'm still going to have to buy a few more pieces but it's pretty exciting to have made it this far. Craig and I are looking forward to next week when we will finally get a chance to see this baby on ultrasound. I'm feeling really good that everything is well; mostly because I've made it this far but also because my symptoms are as strong as ever. I don't remember being nearly as constipated with Shaun or so tired. Craig has been a great help this weekend and looking after Shaun so I can sleep. He ever offered to get up with Shaun yesterday so I could sleep in. I ended up getting up anyway because I think that family time is more important than sleep time, but that was really thoughtful of him to offer!

I thinking I may look for some maternity stuff this weekend. I don't have much at all from Shaun because I didn't need it so early, and Melissa wasn't even pregnant at this season with Grayson so all her stuff is for spring and summer.

I need some warm tops. Like long sleeve styles. I love the ones with ties underneath the bust because they hide the flab while emphasizing the tummy. Perfect for baby #2. :)

First Snowstorm

We're being slammed by a snowstorm today that's falling at 2cm an hour. We were supposed to go to Craig's mom Donna's today for dinner but it's looking like that will have to be rescheduled. It if is, we'll see if we can hang out at his parents' house instead.

Shaun's first snowman

Alright, 6 weeks 4 days and I feel so pregnant! It's great. But I'm realizing this time around that pregnancy is really hard on the body. I'm constipated and bloated. Soooo tired all the time. And I've been feeing faint on and off this morning. It's so good - and I'd never complain out loud because it's taken so much to get here - but I'm slowly starting to remember what early pregnancy is like. I'm getting closer to needing maternty coants because mine are snug and press on my belly. That's cool. Can't wait to have that bulging belly again!

No Water

The water's off today because Craig was having problems in the basement and I'm so frustrated that I can't even flush the toilet. I think I'll run the water for a bit and catch the overflow in a buckey to do the dishes just so I can flush the toilets. Eww. Not that I'm still pregnant (frankly, I'm still so amazed) I have started tackling house projects while Shaun's napping. I think I'll do the laundry room today. More later. I must turn this water back on!

No Symptoms

Maybe I'm imagining the lack of symptoms or maybe since I know I'm pregnant now I'm not paying that much attention to them. But 2 days ago they disappeared completely. No more fatigue (I haven't needed a nap in a couple days) my boobs aren't sore at all now but it's almost like my milk was coming in earlier this week, they were that tender, and I'm not peeing as much anymore either. I haven't said anything to Craig because I don't want him to worry, but now it feels like I'm suffering in silence. Since we haven't told anyone I can't share how incredibly scared I am with anyone. Wednesday night next week will be the day I lost the last baby. I think if I make it past that day and am still pregnant it will be a huge milestone. Could it be I'm just getting used to the feeling of being pregnant and that's why I don't feel it anymore?

I was feeling pretty crampy last week, mostly on the left side. I hope that isn't indicative of something. My hCG numbers came back really good, though.

Wednesday, November 28 83iu
Monday, December 3 1103iu

So that's good, right? I can only hope my numbers are still going up. I'm so scared I'm going to lose another baby. I don't even know what I would do! I'd certainly demand tests and answers. I know I didn't do everything I could have this time: no early u/s, no progesterone, but if come Monday I'm still feeling like this I'm calling Dr. McKinnon and pleading for an u/s. Wednesday I'll be 6 weeks and I have to know that everything is okay before we tell the family at the end of December. I couldn't bear to have to tell them our baby died! I'm going to make myself sick with worry! I need to take a nap and just relax!