Doom

I was starting to feel like normal was a little closer. I had a couple okay days in a row. Today's another low, grey day. I feel like I'm suffering in silence even though I know there's people who care. I cried most of the morning for no apparent reason. Thinking of talking to someone about how I was feeling made me cry. I don't want to accept that there's something wrong. And it feels like my fault. I can't handle life with 3 kids even though I wanted 3. I did this to myself.